My son (3) is going through a very ‘Guns are my favourite’ moment and I was concerned until I did a Google search on ‘boy 3 obsessed with guns’. It appears that loads of mums worldwide are worries about their precious darlings becoming the next nutter going into schools/public places and gunning down everyone they see. Perhaps I should ask Jeeves? Or yahoo? Right… let’s do it and see….

So what next? What crazy challenge have I set myself up for? Well, I have signed up to do the Fleet half marathon to support my friend Sue who is running the London marathon next year to celebrate her 50th birthday….

For now all I want to do is enjoy my new eyelash extensions (which made it round hell runner) and go to various Christmas parties and enjoy myself! No dieting for a while now x

Grrr

So I haven’t ran for 3 months and this has taken its toll on my backside. I really can’t fit into any of my clothes so have decided I’m going to go for it. Pre Christmas diet…. I’m starting it Monday!! I’ve hear about various ones – the ABC diet which is loved by pro anna sites allows you minimal calories but enough to stop your body going into starvation mode…. Hmmm. Or the more sensible approach is a high protein dirt called the 17 day diet which I think I might try. Plus this way I get to eat lots of meat which isn’t very good for the world but if it means I take up less space on this chair then I’m a happy girl.

Avoiding all mince pies is going to be hard…

November was going to be ‘the cut off point’ but I’m happy to report there have been changes in our household for the better – Jacob is 3, Hamish the cat  is 9, and someone has been trying harder which is about time! The only annoying thing is this cold I can’t shift. A head full of bricks and achey lower back, difficulty breathing and mushroom like taste in my mouth – mmm pleasant!

How is the rest of the world?

Running organised events such as ‘Hellrunner’ is a pretty common item on peoples’ list of things to do. It was on mine, too. Until today, when I realized: I don’t have the slightest desire to actually run in Hellrunner or Grim or any such events.

This prompted me to take a closer look at other items on my to do list. I’d made a common mistake: I filled my list with items generally accepted as excellent goals, things that lots of people include on their lists, experiences that are on the list not because I long for the experience, but because other people deem it a worthwhile goal or put it on their own lists.

So sorry for those people wanting to see me running in snow and through icy cold lakes but you’ll have to wait. And it might be a long time.

And for those that are interested – I decided that a new career wasn’t for me – I needed to focus on the job I currently have and try and make the company I am working for a better place to work. The only slight problem is changing the people I work with – I can understand how some people lose it and go out into the world with a shot gun shooting off random people.

Recently I’ve had a break which I never thought would happen and I’ll know more on Monday but I can’t believe the power of positivity. Stay positive and you’ll attract good things, shiny things that magpies go for when they are hovering over polluted land.

Errr….

Ummm…

Jacob looks up at me…

“Have you tried online? – On a computer?”

Man – “Yes I have been contacting but no reply from several girls”

Me – “Oh…”

Man – “Is there place for meeting?”

Me – “Erm, try the Farnham Herald” walking on….

I wonder now if the man will go into the Farnham Herald team and place an advert…. It could be the start of a new line of business. Or perhaps I should have sent him up to the Hotel de Vie, I’ve heard varying rumours about that place.

Life is short, it’s a fact. You HAVE to enjoy what it is you’re doing because there’s no rewind button – life is constantly playing, sometimes slow, sometimes fast but the sand is falling into the bottom half of everyone’s timer.

I’m not happy and everyone knows it, and it’s down to me, nobody else to change my life – I just need to get weaving and do it for my life to become better and Jacob’s life to improve ten fold.

Embrace the things and people who make you happy – ditch the ones that make you sad/angry/unhappy. Watch this space.

Tonight is a meet up with 4 yummy mummies at zizis so my official diet starts tomorrow morning…. Not on Monday as Mondays NEVER work.

So Lotty has 2.5 stone to shed before Christmas – can I do it? Yes…. Do I want to do it? I think so….